Sorry, a word of promise

                                                 SORRY, a word of promise

This word has the best feeling hidden it. No one in English dictionary has the power it has. This word can bring a smile in person who is in anger. This word can replace the place you have in your sweetheart’s heart. It makes reality more visible that what you expected. I have used this word to my crush. He has feelings for me. But my conversation made him hurt. Though there was no mistake of mine, I killed my ego, I convinced myself and said him the word. To my surprise, he was cool. He said its ok, whatever happened is happened, just forgot about it. From then, fear started in me that I could lose people because of my tongue. I have no right in making others emotions change especially my loved ones. I stopped speaking. In this journey I learnt not to create a situation in which I say sorry. I gave no space for using the word.

                       BUT…. Life is unexpected. I started to say sorry to myself. Many faults, to do lists left in completed. The anxiety, curiosity, high expectations, over committed made me empty. My brain is struggling. My heart is bleeding. What I wanted not to happen in others life is happening in my life itself. I feel pity for me.  Mistakes I underwent all my engineering life is:

·        Lack of predictions

·        No time management

·        No act of spontaneity

·        No control over myself

·        Procrastination

·        Escaping present situation

·        Living in dreams

·        Creating my own world

·        Not accepting reality

·        Over confidence in myself

Hope,2020 period of lock down may erase all these and give me a good life.